When he was at table with them, he took the bread. He blessed the bread, and broke it, and gave it to them. And their eyes were opened and they recognized him!(Luke 24:13-35)

Wednesday, July 24, 2019

Turn it off!!! (If only for a little while!)


"Speak Lord, your servant is listening!" (1Samuel 3:10)

"He who answers before listening--that is his folly and his shame." (Proverbs 18:13).

“Be quick to listen and slow to speak." (James 1:19).

"You are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed." (Luke 10:38-42).

"This is my beloved Son; listen to him." (Mark 9:7)

"Do whatever he tells you." (John 2:5)

Jesus' teaching method was a very simple one.  He used parables – short stories and images taken from everyday life to convey hidden truths about the kingdom of God. Like a skillful artist, Jesus painted evocative pictures with short and simple words. A good image can speak more loudly and clearly than many words. Jesus used the ordinary everyday to point to another order of reality – hidden, yet visible to those who had "eyes to see" and "ears to hear". Jesus communicated with pictures and stories, vivid illustrations which captured the imaginations of His audience more powerfully than an abstract presentation could. His parables are like “buried treasure waiting to be discovered” (Matt. 13:44).

Jesus' parable of the sower is aimed at the hearers of His word. There are different ways of accepting God's word and they produce different kinds of fruit accordingly.  There is the prejudiced hearer who has a shut mind. Such a person is unteachable and blind to what he or she doesn't want to hear. Then there is the shallow hearer. He or she fails to think things out or think them through; they lack depth. They may initially respond with an emotional reaction; but when it wears off their mind wanders to something else.  Another type of hearer is the person who has many interests or cares, but who lacks the ability to hear or comprehend what is truly important; such a person is forever too busy to pray or too preoccupied to study and meditate on God's word.  He or she may work so hard that they are too tired to even think of anything else but their work.  Then there is the one whose mind is open.  Such a person is always willing to LISTEN, to HEAR, to LEARN, and to ACT on that learning. He or she is never too proud or too busy to learn. They listen in order to understand. God gives grace to those who hunger for His word that they may understand His will and have the strength to live and act according to it.

It's hard, if not impossible to communicate with someone who is not listening at all or giving you only part of their attention. Christ must get frustrated with us! He loves us so much, and wants to become one with each of us, but it is hard if we are not being attentive to Him.  We must turn the "noise" of the world off to make it easier to listen. Peace and quiet are so important!

Wednesday, July 3, 2019

"ONE Nation, Under GOD, with Liberty and Justice for ALL"


Today’s celebration of our beginnings as a nation should stir our hearts to renewed loyalty to our beloved country.

Yet our nation is now in the throes of a huge debate about policies and—more importantly—the treatment of other human beings looking for hope and safety. Our borders once offered hope and hospitality to the stranger. No more! The torch of Lady Liberty in New York harbor is as much a warning fire as it is a beacon of hope.  I have heard people say, “Our hospitality has run out!”  Hospitality to the stranger is so important to Jesus He made it a point to tell the parable of the Good Samaritan.  The Good Samaritan didn’t just get the stranger to a safe place, he also told the innkeeper to do whatever was necessary for the man to get well and if it cost more than already given, he would pay when he returned to the area again.  (Luke 10: 29-37)

Our nation is now also legalizing the horror of abortion in some states up to and even hours after the birth of a child!  This is evil by every standard of every civilization since the beginning of time.  There is never a good excuse for an abortion.  Ever. To use it as a form of “birth control” or for racist motives is especially sinister.

In the Gospels, Jesus commissions His apostles and disciples to go out and spread His message.  In every village and hamlet, they preach the Good News, heal the sick and drive out demons. Jesus instructs them to travel very light, relying on the people to feed and protect them. They are not to take staff or traveling bag. (Matthew 10, Mark 6:7-13, Luke 10:1-12)

Unfortunately, Jerusalem rejects the message, puts the Son of God to death, and seals its own fate, not the peace of Jerusalem, but its eventual destruction in the year 70AD! No wonder that, when Jesus arrives in Jerusalem for the last time, He weeps over the city's rejection, again using the image of God as a tenderhearted mother. (Luke 13: 34)

Our late Holy Father, St. John Paul II, reminded us that peace begins in the human heart. Peace will only come from those whose hearts are filled with God's love and obedience to His plan for the world.

On this Fourth of July, may we remind ourselves that, when we practice "justice for all," God will send us the peace for which we so long.

Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Who Will Live in the Presence of the Lord?


“He who does justice will live in the presence of the Lord." (Psalm 15, Responsorial Prayer)

The Catechism of the Catholic Church defines justice as working for equity among people. The full definition makes it clear that our faith obliges us to work for justice – it’s not optional.

This is especially true for those who have won “the birth lottery.” They did so when they “picked” loving parents located in peaceful and reasonably prosperous location that gave them a good start in life.  Some call it “white privilege”, but I’m not convinced only the “whites” enjoy the privilege.  I hate it when someone says, “I did it all myself” because no one succeeds on their own. Sure, you can work hard but you had a huge head start if you “picked” parents who could afford to invest in your future.  Justice demands that we recognize our totally random good fortune rather than taking credit for it.

I’ve never considered that I was born into prosperity or wealth.  If anything, my mother and father fell into the lower middle class, bordering on poverty.  But we also didn’t have to flee our home due to ethnic cleansing or spend 12 years in a camp hoping to go somewhere better. We weren’t threatened with deportation because my parents brought me illegally to the U.S. as a small child, looking for a better life.  So, I guess compared to migrants and refugees, I was born into a possibility of prosperity, if not wealth.

I am so proud of the fact that my children have had the opportunities to pursue their passions and Sarah in particular, has chosen to become an immigration attorney.  Her and Tony’s zeal for justice in the world—especially for refugees and migrants—is a cause for immense joy in my life.

It’s interesting to reflect on the difference between justice and charity (in the secular sense) which is wonderful but optional. Charity (in the secular sense) is buying something that I don’t need to help my granddaughter’s summer project or doing something nice for a friend who has temporarily fallen on hard times. On the other hand, justice demands serious action against social evil – like our government’s inaction towards fair and just handling of refugees and migrants.   

When we perform acts of justice, we’re not being noble.  As the psalmist reminds us, we’re just trying to become worthy to “live in the presence of the Lord.”


Sunday, June 23, 2019

Easier Said Than Done

Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span?....seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be given you besides. Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself.” Matthew 6:27 & 33-34

As the saying goes, “It's easier said than done.”

I am a worrier. I always have been. I worried about school. I worried about work. I worried about my abilities as a son, a husband, a father. I still worry about my wife, my daughters, my granddaughters. Let's face it, in today's world it's really hard not to worry. 

I think most people are worriers. But for some, it becomes their way of life. Finances, relationships, work, family, health and many other things in life can be the cause of much worrying, fear, anxiety and even depression. I thank God my worrying has never become such a burden that I couldn't cope.

I found out a long time ago that the proper way to deal with the things I worried about is trust. Trust in God, in His fidelity, in His all-consuming love me me, and in His providence. I know He loves me more than I can ever imagine. And He is aware of every detail of every problem I face.

When we truly understand the love of God and His infinite wisdom, we shouldn't have to worry. We should be able to trust and surrender all to Him every day and allow Him to enter into and direct us in hope according to His perfect plan for our lives. But again, this is easier said than done.

Another key factor in overcoming the worries and anxieties of life is to meaningfully seek the Truth. Knowing the truth frees us and it enables us to see the hand of God at work even in the most difficult of situations. God never abandons us even though it may feel like that at times. Even Jesus felt that way for a moment while on the Cross when he asked, “Father, why have You abandoned me?” But it was a passing moment, as a short while later He commended His Soul up to His Father, trusting that He had not been abandoned in his agony.

If we can seek out His voice, His will, His wisdom and His truth, it makes it much easier to place our trust in Him. And when we place our trust in Him, we find peace in our soul and feel the heavy weight of our worry lift away.

I have a couple of sure-fire methods to seek out His truth for me when I am worried or anxious. 

The Rosary is my go-to prayer for instant serenity, especially meditating on the Sorrowful Mysteries. Journeying with Christ through His Passion and death puts my concerns in perspective and many times leads me to constructive steps I can take to alleviate my worry.


Then there is Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament. If you have never been to an Adoration chapel, I recommend you make a point to go as soon as you can. Even if you don't believe, as Catholics do, that the Eucharist is the actual Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ. If you are truly searching, just sit there and listen. Jesus will fill your heart with a peace and love you never imagined possible.
 
Jesus, I trust in You.

Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Compassion, Humility, Mercy, Forgiveness are not just "Buzz words"!


Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. (1Peter 3:8)

Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. (Matthew 5:7)

Stop judging and you will not be judged. Stop condemning and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will be forgiven. (Luke 6:37)

You always read about events in the news and you naively think “Thank God that wouldn’t happen here!”  Well, it happened here.  Yesterday, officers responded to a report of a possible baby in the dumpster. When officers arrived, they met with a citizen who told officers he thought he saw a baby wrapped up inside the dumpster. A newborn baby boy was found alive inside the dumpster and medics transported the baby to an area hospital for treatment.  During their investigation the police located the teenage mother near the scene and was also transported to a hospital for treatment.  The 15-year-old mother of the newborn baby boy is still in the hospital being treated but will be cited for felony child abuse/endangerment and will be released to her parents.

When the story hit, I “shared” it on Facebook, asking for prayers for both the mother and her son.  I also read the comments to see what others would say about the story.  I am frequently puzzled and frankly saddened by the lack of charity in the world today.  Actually, that’s putting it mildly.  It’s not a lack of charity but an abundance of hate, fueled by people who are acting out of fear or ignorance.  Some of the comments were quite graphic in the punishment the young mother should receive, even up to death!  It’s a sad commentary on our society’s morals and value of human life.

I am not defending this young woman for what she’s allegedly done. Child abandonment is wrong and dumping a living, breathing infant is especially egregious. No person should ever have to endure such violations of their person or their dignity, especially a newborn baby. Everyone needs to be treated with compassion and understanding.

At the same time, however, we must be willing to extend compassion and understanding to this new mother as well. We must be willing to see her as maybe a deeply troubled person with mental illness or disordered passions. Don’t forget that Jesus has called us to forgive every person, regardless of their sins!

Let’s not forget what Jesus told the Pharisees in Matthew 9:13: “Go and learn the meaning of the words, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ I did not come to call the righteous but sinners.”  I think that clearly, what Jesus tells us in this passage is that we should be showing mercy to one another, regardless of our sins or the stigmas associated with those sins.

We should be asking ourselves, “Why do we seek and want justice? Is it to preserve peace and safety? Or is it because we are hurting because this baby was treated so horrifically, and we want revenge?  In Matthew 7:1-3, Jesus instructs us: “Stop judging, that you may not be judged. For as you judge, so will you be judged, and the measure with which you measure will be measured out to you. “

We need to remember that we’re called to love our neighbor as ourselves and be merciful, just as Jesus showed mercy towards all of us by taking on our sins and dying for each and every one of us.

Tuesday, June 4, 2019

An Impromptu "Exit Interview" 8 Months After Retirement


Every successful company has a “Mission Statement” to help remind them of why they exist and why they are important to society.  One of the objectives stated in U-Haul's most important Management Bulletin is “to improve human lives.”  That one statement was the reason I was able to stay focused on providing the best customer service I could for over 25 years, despite the many aggravations and obstacles that popped up in that time.  Every time I felt discouraged or tempted to quit, I would go back to the noble notion of improving human lives.  I truly believed that is what I was doing.  It’s probably why I rarely argued with a customer (or as we preferred to say—a friend or neighbor) over minor issues and strived to be an advocate for the customer when disputes arose.
  

A key phrase the CEO  made sure we heard at every manager’s meeting each month was “Our families are looking to us for help and certainty”. He was reminding us that we had to be confident in our ability to deliver on what we promised—clean, safe, well-maintained equipment and peripheral services at a cost our customer (families) could afford. And to convey that confidence to the families who were depending on us to help improve their lives.  For the most part, I believe we did. When we didn’t, we did our best to accommodate them in some other way.


Those two words; “help” and “certainty” have been rattling around in my brain all day as I contemplate next Sunday’s Feast of Pentecost. 


At His Ascension, Jesus told the Apostles He would send the Paraclete (the Holy Spirit) to them (us) to teach and comfort them (us). “But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” [John 14: 26, 27]


In other words, God the Father sent the Spirit in Jesus' name to “help” (teach) us deal with this world and give us “certainty” (comfort us) in our hope for everlasting life in the presence of Christ in the next world.


I admit that the CEO’s constant mantra of “help and certainty” started to bore me and seem insignificant after the 100th reminder. Who could have foreseen I would be using it after I retired to describe the Holy Spirit’s role in my life? Now I can’t stop repeating it! I can only say thank you, Joe, for being an instrument of the Holy Spirit that dwells in each of us who lets Him in.  And for allowing me to be a member of the U-Haul family and improve human lives for so long.

Monday, May 20, 2019

A Rewarding Faith Sustains Me




What would you say if someone asked you, “How do you know that God comes and makes His dwelling within you?” (John 14:23).  Do you believe this to be true?  That God wants to make your heart and soul His dwelling place?  If so, how does this happen?

Children seem to get it.  They seem to understand that God dwells in their hearts.  Of course, if you asked them how they know this they may look at you with a confused look and not know how to respond.  But nonetheless, somehow, they do understand that God dwells within them.

By the gift of faith, we, like little children, just know that God wants to dwell within us.  We know that He wants to possess our souls, speak to us, strengthen us, lead us and guide us.  We know, by the gift of faith, that God is real and desires the deepest and most intimate relationship with us.  We just know.

The good news is that faith leads to understanding.  This means that the more we are attentive to the voice of God speaking within us, leading and guiding us, the more we begin to understand His indwelling presence.  As St. Augustine said, “Faith is to believe what you do not see. The reward of faith is to see what you believe.”  Faith in God’s indwelling presence leads us to the answer of the question above.  The answer is one that God and God alone can give to us.  We can share our faith with others, give witness to His presence in our lives, and give those around us the answer to that question through faith.  How do I know God dwells within me?  Because I see Him there, I speak to Him there, and He speaks to me. 

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Where's the nearest wall?


Have you ever been frustrated by others who don’t appear to listen, despite your best efforts and repeated instructions, suggestions and admonitions?  Instead, they take a different path, turn in the wrong direction or make a mistake. They know what they should do, but they don’t do it. I used to get that feeling a lot when I was working in management.  All I could do was sigh loudly and roll my eyes over their bullheaded behavior that could (and often did) get them into some very serious trouble, and even lead others to the same fate.

That kind of behavior resonated with me as I read the first reading today, where Moses intercedes for those who have built the molten calf to worship it.  Moses asks God to relent from punishing those who have strayed, who didn’t listen to God and Moses. God does listen and relents. In the Gospel reading from John, Jesus seems exasperated that people don’t listen or if they do listen, they don’t hear. He tells of people searching the Scriptures to find eternal life, yet they don’t want to come to Jesus to have that life.

Today’s readings made me realize that this lack of listening, or perhaps it is listening and not really hearing, also characterizes my relationship with God. I have instructions, suggestions and admonitions, but I often stray away from what I should do and who I should be. I don’t hear. I may listen to the Gospel, but I’m easily swayed by my own bullheadedness. I pray that I really hear God and that I listen with an open heart and a mind and a will that are open to God’s way, not just my way.

Friday, March 29, 2019

Why settle for plain old vanilla?


Twice this week I’ve been blessed to hear two different speakers on the radio talking about the 7 Sacraments.  

The first speaker was a priest who refers to them as “hatching, matching, and dispatching”. 

“Hatching” refers to the Sacraments of Initiation—Baptism, Eucharist, Reconciliation, and Confirmation—which bring us to Christ and nurture our faith.  

“Matching” is the Sacraments of Marriage and Holy Orders, which bring us closer to Christ by embracing the vocation He desires for us.

“Dispatching” is the Sacraments of Anointing of the Sick and Last Rites, which bring us closer to Christ by imparting the Grace we need to bear our distress in times of ill health or imminent death.

I just thought that was a simple way of explaining the Sacraments to someone who might be confused about their importance in our lives.


Then yesterday, I heard a woman compare the Sacraments to creme brûlée.  She came from a Christian tradition that doesn’t recognize the Sacraments as the presence of the Holy Trinity in our soul.  She said she was tempted a few times to leave the Catholic Church because of the scandals that just seem to be getting uglier and uglier, but she didn’t, because although other traditions out there can be “as sweet as vanilla” and pleasing to God, she’s tasted the “creme brûlée” that is the True Presence of Christ in the Sacraments, and doesn’t want to go back to “plain old vanilla”.  I concur.

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

The man in the boat.....


It’s my brother Tom’s birthday! I miss him terribly, but especially on this special day.



He was a remarkable artist who had no formal training. He could look at any scene or object and re-create it in any medium you asked him to—pen and ink, pencil, crayon—I was so envious of his talent I could scream!



I found out a few days after his funeral, when I was clearing out his things from Mom’s house and found a journal he had been keeping, that he could also paint beautiful pictures with words!



He wrote an entry dated about a month after his son Tommy was killed in a boating accident while they were out fishing.  It read:



Every time I go fishing, I will remember that the last moments of Tommy's life were filled with love. Because I know how much he loved me and that we had spent a blissful afternoon; and we were excited about the prospect of spending the remainder of the day together fishing, swimming and laughing--completely content.



Some time ago, I was asked the question, "What do you think are the one or two words that describe how you would like to live the rest of your life?" I responded with "contentment and serenity." Afterwards, I was asked to draw what my vision of "contentment and serenity" would look like.



I drew a picture in my mind of a man sitting, no, reclining in a simple rowboat, with a straw hat providing his only disguise from the mid-day sun. Far in the distance the shoreline doubled as the horizon, with images of some agricultural outbuildings, surrounded by harvested cornfields, somewhat overgrown by time. The remainder of the horizon was in its natural state, as one would expect to see on any leisurely Sunday drive in the mid-west states of Iowa, Illinois, Indiana or Michigan; Tall cottonwood trees, Dutch elms, oaks, river birch, and eucalyptus.



The sun was giving the most magnificent reflection of all of Nature's beauty on the water, ever-changing with the passing of the day. Out of nowhere the sweet, warm afternoon breeze would cause the sunlight to sparkle through the leaves of the trees on the horizon; falling, then without warning, dancing with the boat through the rippling carpet of water.



Possibly the most serene notion of this beautiful passage of time is that…"



Tom’s entry stopped abruptly there.  I wish he had drawn the picture and included it in the entry, but I could see what he was describing as clearly as if he had painted it. I was crying as I read it and I believe that the Holy Spirit allowed me to see into Tom’s heart at that moment and finish his sentence:



’Possibly the most serene notion of this beautiful passage of time is that…I am the man in the boat’.


Please join me in prayer today that since he didn’t have the “contentment” and “serenity” he so hoped for in this life that he is enjoying both now wrapped in the arms of Our Blessed Mother in the presence of her Son.

Thursday, March 7, 2019

No one likes to embrace their crosses



Lily said she HATES math…especially math homework! She tried cajoling, manipulating, praying and pleading to keep from having to do it, but her mom told her she would have to sit at the kitchen table until she was finished, which made Lily think she would be there until bedtime.  “But I don’t like to do it!”, she said.  Alicia reminded her that in life we all must do some things we would rather not do but that are necessary for our success.  She still whined about it for about 10 minutes while we all went into the family room to watch a little TV.  She must have finally realized she should go ahead and get it done, because about 15 minutes later, we heard her shout “Hallelujah, I’m done!”  I thought the word ‘hallelujah’ was ironically appropriate for my meditation today.


No one likes to embrace their crosses (not even Jesus). We want to get rid of them, but the only way to experience the thrill of resurrection victory is to go through the cross. This means accepting our crosses instead of looking for the easy, most comfortable life.


Can you embrace your difficulties as you would a good friend? Indeed, that is what trials are: They are good friends if we let them bring us closer to God, if we let them mentor us into greater holiness, if we let them stretch our ability to love and to forgive those who make our journey unpleasant.


This is what it means to deny ourselves. It does not mean ignoring our own personal needs. Nor does it mean treating ourselves poorly. It does not mean that we become our own worst enemy.


Denying ourselves means that we "lose our lives", as Jesus describes it, in the crosses that we embrace rather than fight to protect the lives we'd rather have. Don't we want everything to go our way? And when things don't go our way, we want to cajole and manipulate and pray and plead to protect the illusion of how our lives "should" be (it's an illusion because it's our idea, but it's not reality), right?


We could, if we put enough effort into it, shape our lives into what we think is best for us. But what is the cost of that? Jesus says it destroys us. We lose touch with God. We lose human relationships. We lose ourselves in the process of getting what we want.


In today's first reading, Moses invited us to choose between God's ways and our own ways. He pointed out the advantages and disadvantages of our decisions.


Of course, we do want to do things God's way. We know that he's smarter than we are. But embracing our crosses and denying ourselves is painful, oh so painful!


There is only one way to do it: We must also embrace Jesus (and thus let him embrace us) as we cry our way through the Way of the Cross.


The joy that's available in suffering comes from knowing that Jesus is on our side, and from trusting our Father for a good future, and from being rooted in the Holy Spirit who affirms us, and from realizing that Jesus the Great Redeemer will transform every curse into a blessing.

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

But Lord, I worked so hard for everything!........

The bad news?  We are called to give up “everything” to follow Christ. (Mark 10:17-31) What does that mean?  By giving up everything, we are called to completely surrender our own will and preferences in life to serve Christ in accord with His divine plan.  This may take on many forms but, in the end, it’s always a call to give up everything.

The good news?  “Giving up everything” is nothing other than giving up our own selfish ideals and preferences in life.  The even better news is that the life He has in store for us is far better than we can dream of or imagine.  So, by saying “No” to our own will and doing things our own way, we are in fact saying “Yes” to doing things in the perfect way of God.
   
Why wouldn’t we want to seek only His will each and every day of our lives?  Why wouldn’t we want to serve Him and His perfect plan?  This may take on the form of service to our families.  Giving to them when we do not feel like doing so.  It may mean striving to find joy in small acts of service and love.  It may mean, for some, giving up all normal attachments in life and to seek His will in a more radical way.  Whatever the specific calling in life may be for you, it’s worth embracing God’s will.  
   
Have a happy Lent!

Tuesday, February 19, 2019

Facts matter.....


I can’t get the words “ever ancient, ever new” out of my head today.  Or the newest catch phrase in our political lexicon "facts matter".  I have been reading—or at least hearing—Scripture my entire life, either on my own or when I attend Mass. Today’s first reading for mass reminds me that no matter how much I think I know about the Bible, I learn something new every single time I read it.  Maybe it’s the Holy Spirit’s way of keeping me filled with a wonder of and a hunger for God’s Word.  Maybe it’s because I have a lot more time to read and think about every word or phrase that I read, now that I’m retired.  I don’t exactly know why, but one would think that after 65 years I would be able to tell the story of Noah’s ark to my children and grandchildren accurately.  After contemplating today’s first reading, apparently not.
  

Every children’s book I have ever seen or read to my kids or grandkids says that the animals went onto the ark “two by two”, so Noah took two of every kind of animal into the ark, right? Not exactly. The Bible states, “Take with you seven pairs of every kind of clean animal, a male and its mate, and one pair of every kind of unclean animal, a male and its mate, and also seven pairs of every kind of bird, male and female, to keep their various kinds alive throughout the earth” (Genesis 7:2–3).

How have I missed that my whole life after reading the actual Bible passage (or hearing it at mass) at least a thousand times?  Not only the number of creatures that were saved on the ark, but the types of creatures that were destroyed! 

“So the LORD said: ‘I will wipe out from the earth the men whom I have created, and not only the men, but also the beasts and the creeping things and the birds of the air, for I am sorry that I made them.’”

There is no mention of the fish or shellfish that live in the oceans being destroyed in the flood.  Only the men, beasts, ‘creeping things’, and the birds of the air.  I guess fish could be included in the term ‘creeping things’, but then why the phrase “so I will wipe out from the surface of the earth every moving creature that I have made.”?

I know.  The Bible is not meant to be read as a literal history of the world.  I’m just pointing out that I can be a lot better at paying attention to what I read and hear from now on.  Do I give my complete attention to my family, friends, or others that I should, and act accordingly?  Or do I skip over some important details, to make it easier to move on without much thought or effort on my part? And what of my obligations to the greater society and decisions I arrive at when participating in the public debate?  Do I pick and choose which facts to look at, or do I look for the whole Truth in what is being presented to me, then make an informed decision?  When examining my conscience at the end of the day, do I look a look at the sum of my decisions and actions and take responsibility for my shortcomings, or do I try to justify my poor performance in the eyes of God?

It’s funny how a simple sentence in the Bible can get me to think about my sins and how sorry I make God for making me, but also how great and merciful He is by sending His Son to save me from myself.

Saturday, February 16, 2019

Why am I still hungry?


I love food, especially good food. Especially good Italian or Mexican food. These days, almost everyone shares lovely photos of food with their friends. However, no matter how good or interesting the food is, we are never satisfied.

There is nothing wrong with enjoying the search for good food, but it highlights our hearts' desire for something more fulfilling, something that cannot be satisfied by food alone.

As Jesus says in today’s Gospel reading: "My heart is moved with pity for the crowd, because they have been with me now for 3 days and have nothing to eat" (Mark 8:2). His heart is also moved with pity for us, as we have been with Him for so long, yet we are still so hungry -- searching the world for ways to satisfy our hunger, be it through success, power, money, relationships, lustful desires, food, entertainment, travels, social media, etc.

Just like Adam and Eve in today’s Old Testament reading (Genesis 3:19-24), we have been tempted by the devil with the false promise that we will be satisfied when we eat the fruits of this world; yet every time we think we have satisfied a certain craving or desire, we find our hearts still yearning for more. More temptations will continue to lure us further -- many of which distract us from spending time with God, bringing us further and further away from Him, and sometimes even hiding from Him.

The truth is, God is the One for whom we are seeking and yearning. It is only in God that we are truly satisfied. Only in God do we find the truth and happiness we never stop searching for, because man is created by God and for God; and God never ceases to draw man to Himself.

Jesus gently reminds us in Matthew 4:4 that the bread we keep seeking for in the world can never satisfy our hunger. Instead, He offers us Himself, the Bread of Life who came down from Heaven. This is Whom we ultimately yearn for and Whom we can consume and be satisfied with at every Catholic Mass. He is also the Word of God satisfying our hunger for truth and happiness when we listen to Him speak to us and comfort us. Jesus calls to us: "Come to Me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28).

Friday, February 15, 2019

Mr. Steve--Religion Teacher?

Years ago (sometime in the mid-eighties, I think), Sister Enza asked me to teach CCD to St. Luke’s first graders on Saturdays. I still can’t figure out why she asked me.  Maybe it was because I provided the whole school with candy canes at Christmas time.  I worked at Thrifty Drug and got a discount.  My cost was 79 cents for a box of 50.  I would buy $20 worth every Christmas (sometimes more) and give them to Sister Enza for the school.   Maybe it was because Marilyn and I were at every children's mass at 11 a.m. like clockwork with our two kids in tow.  Maybe she was impressed with the level of understanding my daughters showed in their own CCD classes.  Whatever the reason, I reluctantly agreed.   
CCD (Confraternity of Christian Doctrine, or “Catechism”) was pretty simple with first graders. It certainly wasn’t the Baltimore Catechism I was taught at that age. The lesson plan was mostly left up to me, so long as I taught the children the very basic things they should know about God—Who He is, why He created us, and about Jesus Christ in a very basic manner.
My first day was interesting, to say the least. There were, to my recollection, 5 girls and 5 boys. The girls were very quiet and eager to learn, and the boys wanted only to play. It quickly became apparent to me that I was going to have to get thinking on their level to get through to them and get them to listen to what I had to teach.  I thanked God that my inner self is still a 6-year-old boy, sometimes. 
I asked them, “What have you learned from Mommy and Daddy about God?” I asked this for two other reasons than the one above: first, I wanted to know what kind of support I would get in my teaching from the parents. Second, I wanted to have a starting point from which to begin.
The only answer I got from one of the girls, and the others all agreed, was that, “God loves me.” Aha! Now I had a reference point with which to begin. I asked one of the boys “Why?” He said, “Why what?”, as he wandered around the classroom looking for toys to play with.  I said, “Why does God love you?”
Before he could answer, I asked the rest of the class, “Why does God love all of you?” You could hear a pin drop. They wanted to know the answer. I told them I would give them the answer at the end of the semester if they hadn’t figured it out by then all by themselves.
It was all I needed to get their attention. I began to tell them what I wanted them to learn that first day, which was basically Genesis 1—the creation of the world. The language I used was something like, “God made the heavens and the earth and everything in it”.  Big mistake! That set the boys off going around the room again, pointing to everything from the chairs they had been sitting in to the chalkboard to the toys that were there, asking, “Did God make this? And this? And this?” I replied that He didn’t make them in the way they were thinking things were made. I made this question their homework for the week. I wanted them to ask their parents for the answer. I thanked God the hour was over. I assigned the children the prescribed homework assignment from their CCD workbook as well (I think it was a picture of God “hovering over the waters” and separating them into the seas and the dry land), telling them that the best coloring jobs would receive a surprise the following week. I also told them that a treat would be given for the best behaved each week. That first day I chose one of the girls for the best behaved (she was a little “mother” trying to help me rein in the boys), and I gave her a lollipop with the understanding that she would ask her parents before she ate it.
When the children had gone, Sister Enza came to me and asked how it went. I told her about my attempts at my first teaching job and my frustrations that I felt I probably didn’t teach them the lesson they were supposed to learn. She said, “Don’t worry. They’ll surprise you, I guarantee it!”
The next week, I pointed to the chair I was sitting in and asked one of the boys, “Who made this chair?” He said, “God”. I said, “That’s right! Do you know how?” Another of the children piped in, “God made the tree that was made into the wood for the seat!” Another said, “And He made the man who made the chair!” Yet another kid said, “And he taught the man who made the chair how to put it together!” Still another said, “And Mommy said He made ME, too!” I was so amazed at the answers they gave, and the thought that they had put into the homework, that they all received a lollipop that second week!
The following morning, which was Sunday, as my family and I were leaving Mass, one of my students’ parents came up to me and thanked me! She said her son loved me and the “stories” I was telling. She said he could hardly wait for Saturdays so he could go to school with “Mr. Steve.” She said a couple of the other parents had also expressed similar sentiments to her. I started to feel better about this “teaching” thing.
The rest of the year was a breeze. I had fun, and I learned more from those children about the innocent faith that Christ asks of all of us than I could ever teach them. Which is, I think, what Sister Enza had in mind all along. And yes, by the end of the semester the children (and me, too) all learned why God made us, and more importantly, why He loves us.
These kids are all in their mid-thirties with children of their own by now.  I wonder how much of what “Mr. Steve” taught them they remember, if they remember at all.  Most of all, I wonder if they still remember that God loves them, and why.  I pray that they do. 
Now that I'm retired, I am giving serious thought to the idea of volunteering to teach a low-grade level CCD again.  Or even something as simple as teaching youngsters how to pray the Rosary.  We'll see if the Holy Spirit concurs and helps me in my discernment.

Thursday, February 14, 2019

Love is never divided, only multiplied


“It is not good for man to be alone.”—God, Genesis 2:18

“This one, at last, is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh”—Adam, Genesis 2:23

“If we all give more to each other, we all end up with more for ourselves.” –My nephew Alex Farnsworth, in a Facebook post December 6, 2010

“Love is never divided, only multiplied.”—My reply to his post

You hear stories of people who say, “Our love grows every day”, or “We work hard to keep our love this strong.”  God has certainly blessed me, because my love for Marilyn is stronger today than it was when I proposed to her, and it’s never been an effort for me to be in love or to stay in love with her. I thank God every day that He created Marilyn so that I would not be alone.  I think often of what keeps our love for each other so strong.  It’s because we’ve never had to “work” at our love.  It is so hard to put into words because there are too many words to describe our love.  It just exists.

What has made our love stronger is discovering that love is never divided, only multiplied.  There is nothing like the love of a parent for a child. And that love strengthens the bond between the husband and wife.  When Marilyn told me she was pregnant, I was worried. I didn’t know anything about raising a child! Worse, would our baby require so much love from Marilyn that I would be less loved?  Alicia, from day 1 of her life, answered that question for me. When I was in the delivery room, I watched as Alicia’s face appeared and she looked right at me!  At that moment, I knew what paternal love is about; it’s an unconditional, no-holds-barred head-over-heels love that is complementary, not competitive with marital love, and nothing can take it away.

A couple of years later, Marilyn told me she was pregnant again. Again, I was worried. I loved Alicia so much, how could I ever love another child so much? Would I have to “split” my love for them? Again, I didn’t have to worry. The minute Sarah was born, God gave me the grace to multiply my paternal love. I love each of my daughters the same—boundlessly. It has given me an understanding of just how much our Heavenly Father must love each of us!

I rediscovered this feeling at the birth of each of my grandchildren.  There is Lily, who brightens my life every single day with her own discoveries of love for God and others.  Josephine is every bit a reminder of the curiosity and unfettered love we all begin our lives with.  Paloma (‘Dove’, in Latin), is named for the symbol of the Holy Spirit, and she reminds me of the third person of the Trinity Who is best described as the Love of the Father for the Son and the love of the Son for the Father.

Is there a limit to the love we can get or receive?  God allows us to set the limit.  The more we give, the more we receive.  My question is, why would anyone want to stop giving or receiving love? 

Monday, February 11, 2019

The evening and the morning are filled with the goodness of God.


Marilyn, Alicia and Lily went to Legoland today, leaving me (at my request) alone at the hotel on the beach in Carlsbad. I brought along the book “Jesus, A Pilgrimage” written by Father James Martin, SJ to read while sitting on the patio waiting for their return. But I haven't picked it up yet. I decided to read the Scripture for mass this morning and write a reflection instead. I'm glad I did. The Holy Spirit has a way of speaking to me that continually surprises me while at the same time freaks me out in a pleasant sort of way.

As I sit here gazing out to the ocean and listening to the waves crash onshore no more than 100 feet away from me, I realize all of creation is a reflection of God and an opportunity to worship him.

The first verses of Genesis (Genesis 1: 1-19) speak of the earth as a formless wasteland where darkness covered the abyss. God decides to create. He orders, organizes, gathers, and shapes the formless stuff into something nothing short of magnificent. To do this, He only needs to speak the word. Then, after the creation occurs, He stands back, looks at His creation and says, "Man, that is good!" I thought about the use of the exact words in the book. It's not simply that he thinks his creation is good. He sees just "how good it was." It reminds me of those times when I help Lily with her Legos. We build different things with them, we say “Wow! Look what we did!”, then we can play make believe with the results. There is joy that comes from taking a bunch of scraps and seeing what can be done with them.

The psalm for today includes parts of Psalm 104. The psalmist calls upon his inner being to bless the Lord. God is so great; His robe is majesty, glory, and light. God organized everything so that it works together beautifully. The earth and the ocean each have their place. The fuller reading of the psalm really emphasizes how everything has its own role but complements the rest of creation. For example, God places birds in the sky but then also gives them branches from which they can send forth their song. What would the birds do without branches? God takes care of the seemingly insignificant parts of His world. He sees it all and says, "Man, that's good." How much more does He take care of us, who He made in His own image and likeness?


In the Gospel reading we continue to see the creative power of God at work in Jesus. Jesus is both fully human AND fully divine. So being human, like His disciples, He gets tired and has times when He tries to get away from the crush of people who want His attention. However, they always seem to find Him. They want to hear from Him and they want to be cured of their illnesses or bring their relatives and friends to be healed. Jesus cannot speak to everyone or lay hands on everyone. The people discover, though, that this is not necessary. "If only we can touch the tassel on his cloak...." And all who touch it are healed. Jesus frequently got angry when He saw how illness or demonic possession could twist a human being into knots and make their lives miserable. When the people are healed, I see Jesus, just like in creation, standing back and saying, "Man, that is good."

Thursday, February 7, 2019

Communication and Trust


If my 48 years in management taught me anything, it was that every goal was successfully accomplished only if a plan was formulated. Then tasks were delegated, communicated, executed and followed up.  At every company I worked for, they all had catchy anagrams for this process.  Some had several.  At U-Haul, they had 3 that I was particularly fond of and used a lot; IFDOAS (Intelligently Follow the Directions of a Superior), DOAB (Do Our Absolute Best), and my “go to” method for getting things done was RAA (Responsibility, Authority, Accountability).  For any of these to work, you need to identify those who will be the most effective, arm them with the knowledge and tools they will need, then check back with them frequently to gauge their progress and supplement their authority, if needed.  It usually helps to be with them there in spirit, if not in person to give them the confidence that they are on the right track.  They have to know that you will back them up, even if they make a mistake, which they will! 

I see this process being used by Jesus in today’s gospel (Mark 6:7-13).

Responsibility

The first thing that is worth pointing out in this passage is that Jesus “summoned” the Twelve.  This means He brought them to Himself.  Sure, we can read this as simply meaning that He, in a sense, called a meeting with them to discuss His plan.  But we should look deeper.  We should see in this summoning the fact that Jesus was not only calling a meeting, but rather, He was drawing them to His very person.  In this act of summoning, the Apostles were personally encountering Jesus, receiving His grace and power, and being changed themselves. He also summons each of us, daily, to Himself.

Authority

So what is the authority that Jesus gave the Apostles then, and gives to us, now?  It’s often not appreciated for what it is.  Jesus very much does want to give us authority over the evil one and his minions since they are far more powerful than us.  So, if we are to have a chance in the battle, we need Jesus’ authority.  This is not only some supernatural power to cast out demons; rather, it’s much more extensive.  How do we exercise this authority given to us by Jesus Christ through our baptism?

Through the power of true Christian charity.  Charity, or love, overwhelms the evil one and renders him powerless in our lives.  Selflessness, sacrifice, humility, faith, truth, and honesty are among the most powerful weapons in our battle.  The evil one does not know what to do with these.  We do not necessarily have to engage in some sort of dramatic spiritual warfare to do battle.  Simply love God and live that love in your daily life and you will, in a sense, be casting out demons left and right!  We will have the victory in our Christian living because God will take care of all the rest.  It’s His mission and He is the one summoning and sending us.  Do not be afraid to follow His lead! He gives us the authority and power we need to fulfill His will.  If we are open to this process our Lord will use us abundantly.

Accountability

From there He sent them out two by two.  This is also significant.  Jesus knows our human weakness.  He knows that by ourselves we will most likely fail, but with the Christian support of another we are greatly strengthened.  This is because Jesus’ mission is not only something we do ourselves, it’s something that is communal as well.  We are each one piece in His mission. However, to fulfill that mission, we need the love and support of others.  We need to go two by two into the battle. He sends us forth to bring His love to others.

Sadly, in today’s world, it seems the two things headed for extinction are communicating with strangers and trusting in their innate goodness. Our culture is becoming polarized and all too often focused on talking only to people with whom we share a small view of the world and distrusting everyone else’s view or comment. Maybe if we were willing to embark on a pilgrimage such as the 12 Apostles did in today’s gospel, without out all the “baggage” we carry with us of preconceived notions, we might be able to communicate more openly with others and realize that we need their trust and understanding as much as they need ours.

Friday, February 1, 2019

I'm just a seed in the Kingdom of God


O, to be like one of the disciples, to whom Jesus explained everything in private as the Gospel lesson in Mark tells us (Mk 4:26-34).  What did He tell them about the Kingdom of God that He did not tell the crowds of ordinary people to whom He spoke through parables? Did He make God’s message clearer to them? I don’t know the answer to that. But what can be much clearer than the image of a tiny mustard seed growing to become a large plant or a kernel of corn growing to a plant that yields a thousand-fold in the harvest? Even a child can understand these images of the Kingdom of God as a reality that expands miraculously as our faith grows.

 Jesus wants to use each one of us for the building up of His Kingdom.  We may feel as though we cannot do much, that we are not as gifted as others, that we will not be able to make much of a difference, but that’s not true.  The truth is that each one of us is packed with unbelievable potential that God wants to bring to fruition.  He wants to bring forth from our lives glorious blessings for the world.  All we must do is allow Him to work.

Like a seed, we must allow ourselves to be planted in the fertile soil of His mercy through faith and surrender to His divine will.  We must be watered by daily prayer and allow the rays of the Son of God to shine on us so that He can bring forth from us all that He desires and has planned from the foundation of the world. 

But can we simply live by faith? While the idea is not complicated, the practice seems to be for most of us. We lose our confidence and our faith dims. We struggle with suffering and we draw back, seeking more certainty, more details, and more reassurance. We see in Hebrews (Heb 10:32-39) and the Psalms (Ps 37:3-4, 5-6, 23-24, 39-40) that during times of affliction, we should be even more confident that God’s will and the Kingdom of God are our refuge. Even while suffering, we need to endure and continue to do the will of God to keep our lives on track. Trusting in the Lord and doing the will of God will make our steps surer and give us more confidence in God’s promises.

We will experience distressing times in life where we will lose our confidence in ourselves and in our faith. Those distresses can shake our beings and threaten our sense of our very identities. When that happens, we should draw on our baptism experience and the promises God made to love us and care for us as a member of the body of Christ. Drawing closer to HIm is how we can experience the Kingdom of God and live by faith in confidence and without fear.  If we could just love each other and reassure each other of God’s love, we would see the Kingdom of God grow miraculously.